night after night
i lay in my bed
trying to sleep
relax each muscle
and relax again
as each re-tenses
let go, let go, let go
a grip of fear
settles about my heart
ICANTSLEEPICANTSLEEP
tomorrow in exhaustion
i can't keep on so
OHGODOHGODOHGODOHGOD
let go, let go, let go
go through, go through
come through the other side
leave it behind
breathe
breathe
breathe
let go, let go, let go
my heart so tight
i feel each beat
will i feel it stop?
i can't breathe deep
no room for lung-swell
can't release, can't ungrip
let go, let go, let go
i pace restlessly
as a panther in forest
home, belong, live
pacing, growling
baleful eyes watch, watch
pace the fence walling me in
let go, let go, let go
metaphor of darkness
deeper than sky
broader than ocean
shadowed vision
daylight darkened
world tuned out
let go, let go, let go
if the model doesn't work
build a new one
let go, let go, let go
what model?
what framework?
what guidelines?
let go, let go, let go
look what i have written in your heart
look?
look deep
icantiCANTICANT I WON'T!!!
let go, let go, let go
I WON'T!!!
let go, let go, let go
must i?
let go, let go, let go
{sigh} i know
let go, let go, let go
stand up, turn around
walk through the gate
i knew was there
step into the warmth
of sun, of peace
look behind me and cry
at last i sleep
(adapted from "What do you do when the way is 'down'?" written 10 November 2001)
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